You know what I just realised as I was reading through my best friends blog? This is the first time I’ve seen her just as she is. I’m realising she has a lot of anger! Haha or we could call it passion too. A lot of heart. A lot of compassion. I mean, I always knew this, but I just saw her for the first time.
Not molding to match anyone’s personality. Not thinking of the right thing to say or vise versa holding back.
It’s just you. And it’s a beautiful thing. I think it’s so rare that we get to just be who we are in everyday life. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying we walk around trying to mould or change to suit people (though we do do this at times!). It’s just the reality of life. I have to have a professional hat on at work. When I’m talking with a friend that is sad I get in my listening shoes. When I’m out having a fun night out I get my glad rags on. It’s just what we do. We are human and we have roles. I actually think it’s great we get to tap into our multifaceted personalities on a regular basis and connect to things and people in so many different ways.
But what happens when all of this is stripped away? When we are left with nothing but our mind, a keyboard and some courage? A beautiful thing. The truth. Our truth. And it doesn’t matter if people disagree, or think it’s boring or even think it’s the most fabulous thing they have ever read. It’s just letting people really see us.
Why is it that we find it easier to write emails? Why is it that it’s easier to write a love letter then say it out loud? Why is it SO difficult to bear our souls (as in properly, truly, honestly do it). Well a) because it’s RIDICULOUSLY hard b) because it’s RIDICULOUSLY scary and c) because we NEVER do it on a daily basis. We always are in our different roles in some form.
So, I’m not really sure what my point is here. Just that maybe we should try to do it more often… or maybe it is better when we don’t, because then we are less vulnerable and opening yourself up like that DEFINITELY leaves you in a position to be sucker punched big time. But so rarely does this happen. So rarely does truly opening up leave you empty and broken. So rarely do we fall when we are ourselves. For who we are is strong. Who we are is individual. Who we are is broken. Who we are is beautiful. You are broken, but you are beautiful to me. In fact, your beauty lies within those things that make you unique. So maybe I wouldn't call it broken at all.
If only people took the time to stop and REALLY look. Stop and really love. Stop, and truly be.
For I am the eagle, the phoenix, the nightingale and the lark,
I need beauty, I need freedom, I need passion, I need spark
I am endless, I am fallen, I am nothing, I am passed
I am empty, I am open, I am calling, in the dark
For a shadow, to be lifted, from the darkness, in your heart
Let me see you, let me hear you, let me feel, your beating chest
Let me wake you, let me speak to you, let me open up your heart,
Let me listen, as you ponder, let me hug you, as you cry
Let me laugh, with every story, where people sung, and people cried
Let me let you, see your beauty, where there’s nothing left to hide
For your beauty, shines for miles, and the sunshine, sheds its light
Let me let you, help to show you, you’re everything, in this life
- E.Gill 09/04/2010, no idea where that came from (meathaphorically speaking, i know where it came from literally)! Always the best way. Lots of love xox
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ReplyDeletep.s. maybe we are the roles we play as well. I think as long as we are ourselves within those roles rather then hiding behind them. Because you just shine when you're yourself. We all know that because we see the people that shine. They are just the ones that have the confidence to be them. We are rarely drawn to the show, the facade, though this does happen too! But generally, we see the spark in peoples eyes, we feel the warmess in their lies, we see the beginnings of the end, we see the beauty in our friends (haha, not sure that made sense! Who cares! xo)
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