From strength to vulnerability, or is it from vulnerability to strength?

You know, it would have been interesting to do a blog when I was a teenager. I look at what I write now vs. what I used to write then. VERY different. Much less angsty (as you would expect) like, to an extent… I still feel the same emotions… I just feel differently about feeling them…

Anyways, of course at that point I was too shit scared to show I was even mildly vulnerable, even though I was falling apart at the seams (I’m struggling here not to say “not literally!” as I work with kids with Autism I’m becoming more and more literal even though I’m the queen of metaphor).

I’d like to say here that my blogs are not just my own thoughts. Over time I have spoken to many friends, family members, colleages (who I also count as friends) and counsellors, who offered me much wisdom – or maybe just understanding, honesty and love are better words to use then wisdom.

For isn’t wisdom something we gain with experience? Isn’t the wise he who knows there is ALWAYS more to learn?
Would you say you more seek understanding and love more then knowing the secrets of the universe? (am I hearing – noooo here?)
Here’s my secret. They ARE the secrets. At least the secrets of the human universe (as in the human race)
OK well atleast, that’s what I need to be happy. We are all different! But that’s my secret. Understanding, honesty and love.

That’s all I ever really wanted. Find that. And you have everything.

Thank-you everyone in my life who showed that to me, in order for me to love myself.

I love you.

Lots of love

Xox Eagle – 15/04/2010

p.s. RIGHT ON!!